Lying here listening to those stupid frogs outside going tok tok tok tok tok tok. Normally I can deal with it but not tonight. thinking about the relationship I just finished. he disrespected me right from the start and I was too blind or what I don’t know to allow him to do that to me so I guess I let him get away with it right from the word go really disappointed in that behaviour of myselftechnically it’s my fault I should never have started the relationship should never have started I really was in love with the idea of a long lost love coming back into my life and thinking that I could we could make something of it so naive from word go in disrespected me and I allowed it.
I guess I can’t go back to the beginning of that one but just finished it now I just have to put it behind you can’t analyse it any more just have to let it go get over the anger which is very hard to do so really I’m very angry at him and myself I guess that’s what I gotta work through is the anger at myself
it will be ok 